心散的我和 L 功課做到一半，一同看了最新一集《How I met your mother》。前一秒還在笑到咯咯聲，下一秒便莫名地展開了一段很認真也很有意思的對話。從他訴說對遠方的女友的思念、遠距離戀愛的困難開始，然後我們為人愈大愈無法談一場簡單的戀愛而感嘆，繼而談起將來、他的人生觀、和我對將來的憂慮。
"You are lost, because you have a future. You know that it's not something crappy and it's out there. Some people just don't have it. You don't even know what's gonna happen tomorrow. Tomorrow is a mystery. Things could change completely, just like what had happened to me on 11th march 2011. Right now, I have an assignment to worry about, why would I put all the stress of worrying about the future on myself? I mean, of course you should have a direction, but it's not like you have everything planned perfectly."
忘了是怎樣扯到他去年經歷的人生低潮。你很勇敢、很堅強，我說。他卻不認同。
"But it has made you a stronger person."
"When it comes to the situation that you do not have other choice, you can only be strong and keep moving forward. You do not know where you are heading to, but you will get to somewhere."
"I'm only 20, but I have gone through a lot more than a 20 year-old should have." 抱歉讓他重提這麼沉重的經歷，也謝謝他分享自己的想法，這一切都讓我反思很多。可能只是他太累了，但直到剛才，我好像仍能從他的眼中看到他當時的愁緒和無能為力。這個老是喚我妹妹卻比我年幼的人，原來有很多值得我學習的地方。Thank you, big brother.
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